Wednesday, November 2, 2016

You lost your way...


No..it doesn't go away..
as long as there is a memory..
nothing fades away..
you can hide behind the smile..
but pain breaks away..
you have to know by now..
you lost your way.




Sunday, October 30, 2016

Must I hide?





He's got fasting black lungs 
Made of clove splintered shardes 
They're the kind that will talk 
Through a weezing of coughs

And I hear him every night 
In every pore 
And every time he just makes me warm

Freeze without an answer 
Free from all the shame 
Must I hide?
Cause I'll never 
Never sleep alone

Look at how they flock to him 
From an isle of open sores 
He knows that the taste is such 
Such to die for

And I hear him every night 
On every street 
The scales that do slither 
Deliver me from...

Freeze without an answer 
Free from all the shame 
Then I'll hide 
Cause I'll never 
Never sleep alone

Oh lord 
Said I'm bloodshot for sure 
Pale runs the ghost 
Swollen on the shore

Everynight 
in every pore 
The scales that do slither 
Deliver me from...

Freeze without an answer 
Free from all the shame 
Then I'll hide 
Cause I'll never 
Never sleep alone

Freeze without an answer
Free from all the shame
Let me die
Cause I'll never 
Never sleep alone

The Mars Volta - The Widow



Sunday, October 23, 2016

Why we hurt in silence and die so loud...

if only I could see you for a moment..
I wish I had a chance to say goodbye...
you were in my thoughts ..
I didn't know those were your last days..
but I was thinking of you..

I know you were dying inside...
but why didn't you wait..
through all the pain I wish I helped you
but now you are gone...

all I have is one photo of you..
you are smiling..I am so grateful for that..
my heart hurts but I will always remember you..with a smile..

we shared a lot..no one knows how much..
you were more than a friend..
and that much more it hurts knowing I will never see you again..

why I couldn't say goodbye?
others decided for me..
others were in control..I never got a chance to talk to you one last time...

I am crying for you know..
because I miss you..
you were always in my thoughts..
my dear unhappy..my unnamed..my forever lost..
this is for you..
you will be remembered ..
forever.

why we hurt in silence and die so loud...




Sunday, October 9, 2016

I've watched you change...

I've watched you change 
Into a fly
I looked away
You were on fire
I watched a change
In you
It's like you never
Had wings
Now you feel
So Alive
I've watched you change
I took you home
Set you on the glass
I pulled off your wings
Then I laughed
I watched a change
In you
It's like you never
Had wings
Now you feel
So alive
I've watched you change
It's like you never
Had wings ahhh ahh ahhh
I look at the cross
Then I look away
Give you the gun
Blow me away
I've watched a change
In you
It's like you never
Had wings
Now you feel
So Alive
I've watched you change.
Now you feel Alive
You Feel Alive 
I've watched you change
It's like you never
Had wings ahhh ahh ahhh

lyrics "Change (In the House of Flies)" by Deftones




Parabola..


So familiar and overwhelmingly warm
This one, this form I hold now
Embracing you, this reality here
This one, this form I hold now, so
Wide eyed and hopeful
Wide eyed and hopefully wild
We barely remember what came before this precious moment
Choosing to be here right now
Hold on, stay inside...
This body holding me, reminding me that I am not alone in...
This body makes me feel eternal
All this pain is an illusion
We barely remember who or what came before this precious moment
We are choosing to be here right now
Hold on, stay inside...
This holy reality, this holy experience
Choosing to be here in...
This body, this body holding me
Be my reminder here that I am not alone in...
This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal
All this pain is an illusion
Alive!
In this holy reality, in this holy experience
Choosing to be here in...
This body, this body holding me
Be my reminder here that I am not alone in...
This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal
All this pain is an illusion
Twirling round with this familiar parable
Spinning, weaving round each new experience
Recognize this as a holy gift and celebrate this chance to be alive and breathing
A chance to be alive and breathing
This body holding me reminds me of my own mortality
Embrace this moment, remember, we are eternal
All this pain is an illusion

lyrics from "Parabola" by Tool
 — with Ivana Pedljo and Tricycle Trauma.