Friday, April 5, 2019

Tuesday, March 26, 2019

Why it feels so real ?

It feels so real and then it vanishes...
feelings are so fragile and tender
one look can light the spark in the middle of darkness..

Life doesn't change with that one look..
even after it the heart still hurts..
tears fall..
what can this one look be...
a sign? a call? or just nothing...

How crazy am I to think this has any meaning..
Days pass by and all of a sudden you become obsessed with time..
how slowly it passes, how nothing is changing...
you wait..
waiting is the worst product of this look..

I know the touch, the breath on my lips, there is nothing else that can replace it..
but is this look a reason to wait..
Am I waiting for NOTHING?
This is the place of no escape...even if waiting is in vain..you are trapped..
thoughts stream through my mind...
Am I really alone in this?
Am I Crazy ?
Maybe I am..probably..maybe..
maybe there is really nothing to feel, nothing to see, nothing to love.

But, why it feels so real ?











Tuesday, February 5, 2019

On a tide of misfortune...


"Attention! I’m in mortal danger..

And I’ve already warned you...
She will stay here and I will go away...
This child of mine...
Evil people are after her...
This child of mine...
On a tide of misfortune...
God gave me this offspring...
That I brought into the world...
And she will stay here...
When I am gone."

translated lyrics - MONA KI NGI XICA – BONGA







Monday, February 4, 2019

You never existed ...

I fell to the bottom of the darkest waterfall..
you left me lifeless..under the moon's shadow..dying slow..

baby you don't catch me when I fall..
no butterfly kisses, no rain drops to hold, no sun rays to warm me..no love to find, no heart to hold..
I stay awake under the nights veils that cover my poor tormented soul...
fading slow ...my breath leaves me..
you don't care anymore..what you left broken..what you left alone..

why baby ..you never catch me when I fall..
covered by darkness..empty and torn...haunted by lost dreams..
you left me to fade like I wasn't real at all..
It's just pathetic how all hope is lost and all love is gone..
in a blink of an eye..

you never existed at all.