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but what am I darlin’ do you see me? is my breath reaching you? are my whispers coming to your soul, do you feel me touching you? when all the starlight blinds you, do you see beyond yourself darlin’? Always behind, I am your shoulder darlin’ but are you mine? I see those winds shaking our existence, we are so fragile, broken, wounded, tired.. but there is always someone behind that door waiting for us to let go, and then..it’s all over.   One pain replaced with another. Or is this a new story? Is hope actually our imagination, is freedom something we dream about, is happiness just a ghost? How can we believe in something we didn’t see, and ignore what is in front of us? What am I darlin’? I wish I existed only in dreams, maybe then I would be my true self, maybe then I would truly be loved, then I would be more real than I am now. We only leave behind what we should never loose. Haunted by happiness, freed...

There is something so cruel in that point of your life when you realize that everything in your life is broken.. you just watch paralyzed and helpless.. how it all falls apart. Any struggle is pointless.. you are sentenced..your destiny is chosen.. you are just an Observer.

I saw him leave.. painful as it was it had to be done the pain we both felt was too much to bare all the good memories were darkened by our screams all the promises were broken we became nothing.. just passengers …just ghosts .. I still feel like he is around.. that feeling will stay ..I know.. what can’t be touch and tasted last forever.. in my mind I saw us together forever.. but reality was far from that.. betrayals , lies, fights..all led to this .. it was hard to say goodbye.. but it had to be done.. I still feel broken and so alone in our bed.. it’s amazing how much you miss that someone next to you.. just to put your head on his shoulder and sleep.. my nights are long..my days even longer.. my nightmares are stronger.. my loneliness overwhelms me .. takes over my thoughts ..I just feel paralyzed.. no way to look forward .. but still I know.. it’s hard to say goodbye.. but it had to be done.. had to be do...

broken with one lie.. broken with one word.. broken with promises of love.. broken beauty.. broken soul.. broken life… darkened whiteness .. darkened innocence.. darkened hope.. all drowned..all lost..

whispers.. I hear these silent whispers.. waking me up in the night.. warm touch on my skin..warm breath on my neck.. silent whispers…silent words.. quiet sounds.. slowly sliding down my body.. breathe…they say..breathe… I hear these silent whispers.. I hear them saying.. “breathe or this will be your final breath”.. breathe.. I feel these silent whispers on my skin.. I just don’t know if I remember how to BREATHE.

they came like shadows..entering with silent footsteps.. dragging their lifeless bodies .. silent streets were shivering under them no one was there to witness the great fall.. smells of death and destruction were everywhere covering the beauty that once was.. those ghosts came.. they were walking pointlessly through the streets trying to find someone who survived.. but no one was there.. no one survived. we were all gone.. I am writing now with my last breath, someone has to know what happened.. we were weak..we were nothing..we were mortal.. I feel the life going from me..I am hidden and afraid they will find me.. I hear them coming ..just their heavy breathing and sound of their feet dragging on that dead street.. they are walking towards me…slowly .. like it doesn’t matter..they knew I can’t run away.. they knew I can’t escape..they knew I am dead.. it was me ..I didn’t realize that..I was running to hide.. like a trapped mouse..like ther...

"....and will be floating in this peaceful tomb...."